A Light in the Dark.

April 16, 2010, 12:59am
Adrian Xavier Cobb

A miracle was born. It all happened so fast; the nurses came in and said it was time to push, which totally caught me off guard; it was really happening lol. She pushed flawlessly..no crying no yelling, no screaming, no nothing and within 5 minutes of pushing, my son was born. I don't think I could stop smiling if I wanted to =] didn't quite cry [yet] but my eyes were watered' up of course.
















I recorded the whole thing; this moment wasnt going down without documentation. When he surfaced, one of the nurses pointed out something crazy; the umbilical cord was tied in a double knot! [For those who didn't know, when an umbilical cord is knotted, that's pretty bad because that's the source of their nutrition, and cases like that don't always end up pretty] He came out perfectly healthy, no problems at all =] My lil dude is a Soldier.
















Later that night after we moved rooms, my bro came up to the room to see his nephew && ended up chillin with us the whole night. We talked about everything and how even though it's been known this day would come for 9 months it was still crazy that it happened. Lol we were joking around about how Adrian would be as he grew up, && when Nate mocked a kiddie voice of when Adrian would be about 5 years old "Hey Dad! Hey Dad I love you Dad!" I was laughing hella hard, and it turned into some intense tears. Yep I finally cried..and I cried hard as hell. But they were happy tears =']
















That was the hardest I ever cried from being happy in my life..
Everytime I thought about my fatherhood with Adrian, I thought about how my Dad was with me, and we have one of the best relationships I've ever known..my Dad was awesome when I was a kid, he brought me up well and is still awesome to this day, and I don't even get to see him much. When I think about my future with Adrian; I look up to my Dad...not too many people can say they want to be like their fathers when they grow up..
















You can't live life in doubt. Though it's nothing new, people are already baggin on me about how "its all gonna change" once the hype goes down, or how its gonna be SOOOO hard. And my personal favorite: "You're in for a rude awakening." Who says that to somebody right after their first child is born, regardless of how old they are? People used to have babies at 14, 15 years old regularly. I could understand if I was one of those dudes who didn't even PLAN to be there for my kid, or if I talked alotta sht but never owned up to anything; but I've been in this since I got the call. I know things are gonna be hard..that goes without saying..but everything good is worth fighting for, and as far as I see it, this is an epic opportunity anyone could have...
Everything, everything happens for a reason. My Dad happened so I could happen, so Adrian could happen and play his part in this world; I just can't wait for be apart of it all. =D
















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There are no mistakes in life; only experience.